Spiritual Lessons from a Sprained Knee
I’m heading downstairs to get some breakfast when my left foot slides out in front of me while my right foot stays planted, resulting in a full-on split with my back leg twisted.
Not knowing whether anything is broken, I take a couple deep breaths and pull my leg around to the front. OK, no broken bones. Phew.
After hobbling down the last few stairs and collapsing into a chair in the living room, my body goes into, what I imagine is, shock. I feel tingly from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. Sweat gathers on my brow and upper lip. I feel nauseated and lightheaded.
I tap my collar bone (a la EFT – Emotional Freedom Technique) to interrupt the panic signals in my body in hopes of calming my system down, while my brain simultaneously runs through a million thoughts.
Who can I call?
Do I need to go to the hospital?
Oh sure, just when I started taking classes at the gym, this happens.
Take some deep breaths and brush yourself off. You’re fine.
Call Melissa and let her know what happened. Be sure to let her
know you’re fine and don’t need anything.
No one likes needy people.
People don’t like you when you’re needy.
You’re on your own, kid.
Suck it up.
Whoa, nothing like some trauma to bring blocking beliefs to the surface.
Situations like these are complicated. One part of me feels totally able to receive. I mean, I can’t walk after all. Being needy is justified here. (And it has to be justified, don’tcha know).
Another part of me is already drafting up the tally sheet so I can be sure to repay anyone who lends a helping hand.
On the way to get x-rays, I apologize to Melissa for the hospital not being closer to home; for interrupting her day; for needing a wheelchair to get into the building. Little Kerri is running the show and this needy shit feels really uncomfortable to her.
For the next several days, as I’m stuck at home, leg propped up with ice, I realize there’s a lot more healing to be done than just my knee — healing on which I thought I had already done enough work. Clearly, there’s more to go.
A twisted knee may take a week or two to mend. Blocking beliefs that I’ve held for the majority of my life? This could take a while.
The good news is my blocking belief healing begins the moment I open my eyes to it, and continues as long as I pay attention.
Hopefully it won’t take another tumble down the stairs.
I’m sorry to hear about your fall. I like how you turned it into a learning experience and sharing it with us.
Thanks, Linda. Healing up nicely. You just never know how life’s lessons will show up, eh?
Happy Holidays to you and yours, as well!
Yes, yes, and yes. Thank you for sharing Kerri. So sorry this happened to you! Sending healing thoughts and prayers your way!
You’re welcome, Tamara! I’m healing up nicely (the knee) and checking in with Little Kerri regularly. Isn’t it funny how our inner child can speak to us? 🙂
Hello, hope you’ll get better soon. What would you recommend when someone in your family is in a situation a little bit worse than yours and just do not get that this is about old emotional junk (loads of junk) stuck in the body. How can I help?
Great question, Erika. It’s so hard when we want more for others than they currently want for themselves. The best thing you can do is to be a role model for that person in your family. Own your truth, do your emotional work. The hope is they’ll see how happy and healthy you are and will want a taste for themselves! Ultimately, however, the decision is theirs as to whether they choose to work on their emotional blocks. It may be in their soul contract this time around to live with those blocks. If they choose to stay stuck, what we want you focusing on is taking care of yourself in regards to your relationship with them. Setting healthy boundaries, doing your best to not get wrapped up in their stuff, letting them be where they’re at, investigating your discomfort around that, etc. Bottom line: You take care of you and you’ll be better equipped to meet them where they’re at! Sending you love and strength. <3
Thanks Kerri, for showing how to turn it around! I’m working on uncovering the unexpected messages that life offers, digging a little deeper to understand motivations and reactions. I hope you’re mending well … love the frozen cranberry ice bag … so festive!
Thanks for joining the conversation, Janet! The messages are all around us, that’s for sure. It takes getting quiet to hear them often, though I’d rather not be shushed by a fall like this! Knee is well on the mend, thanks! Merry Christmas!